I am sick and tired of all those jokes being made fun of recently. Its getting from bad to worse. People who dont really know me started making fun of me too. And the extent of the jokes are turning from "its a little funny" to "big bloody humiliation"

I used to not mind against the jokes, but its getting unbearable and tormenting. I used to just laugh together with people, but its getting painful and annoying just to listen to them.

I do not understand why people are getting more and more insensitive, and I dont even understand if I should continue regarding them as my close friends. I used to not mind my close friends joking about it, but its getting irritating, disgusting and annoying.

You think its funny? Then you are just insensitive, childish and one hell bastard.

I swear I am going to screw the next person who disgust me with this kind of jokes. I shall take no more humiliation and direct insult.
There is only so much one can take. It is not funny anymore when one disregard the person's feeling. It is not funny when you step on a person's pride to make yourself look good, look humorous.

There is only so much I can take and I am almost over my limit. The anger is overflowing and the volcano will explode anytime soon.

I have made my decisions on certain things.
But I am unsure about them.. Whether they are right or not.
I have wasted a lot of time doing what I am not good at doing.
I shall not repeat the same mistakes again and again until I have enough confidence in me.

was reading the newspaper and following up some stories recently.

the RenCi incident finally ends. Mingyi and his assistant are found guilty.

It really tells us something isn't it?

Just one wrong step, one mistake, and whatever effort you had given in, whatever sacrifice you made, whatever reputation you have built up, will just be gone in such a short while. I used to respect what Mingyi did for the people. But it seems that what he had contributed does not make up to what mistakes he had done.

I took a step wrong, made a mistake earlier on.

I hope the consequences will not be too great for me to take it.

I still cant get over it I guess.

wow look at my cbox! kanasai

$%#^$**$%#$%#%&$^*

apparently the owner of this link has a lot of people spamming on his tagboard saying pls do not tag their personal blogs.

There ARE this kind of idiots out there. IDIOTS

我知道我没有机会
我早就知道了
我对这些事的直觉还蛮敏锐的
虽然我不希望自己懂得那么多

我早就知道自己根本不能比较
但我一直不愿意接受
一直还抱着希望
还希望自己有办法
让一切改变

太迟了
我知道的
我的心还在痛
但是
我知道没有办法改变
there is no short-cuts to happiness but dancing is one of them.
I knew whats wrong after reading it.
[reply tags!]
yt: haha yah i am trying to mug hard! but i keep falling asleep! and i like writing in chinese coz i can express myself better! try learn reading in chinese! HOHOHO
dhika: it is not bimbotic loh! i am just expressing how much i love them haha
xiuming: okay we shall meet up after exam!
oe: trying to let everything be the past haha.

OMG OMG OMG!!!

It has been such a long time since I last heard anything about Wondergirls. And I MISS THEM. They havent been having any new productions recently due to a JYP tour in LA and NewYork.

So I went back to check some of the blogs about Wondergirls and I FOUND THIS!

Wohoo! After I watch I was like... WOW!!

I really love Wondergirls hohoho. And btw Sohee's singing is so much better now! I used to think that her voice are nice but she doesnt really know how to sing. Such a pity. BUT after watching this video I feel happy for her!

MY SUNYE IS STILL AS PRETTY & HOT AS EVER HOHO

And Yoobin is still a lil plump haha.


[edit]

The MV is actually a remake of the song "NOW" by Fin.K.L. (consists of Lee hyori, Oak Joo Hyun, Lee Jin, Sung Yu Ri). I went to watch the actual MV on youtube and the MV is about 80% identical (besides the rapping part and the dance). Haha I think the director tries to keep the flavour. And I think Wondergirls' version is nicer hehe.

Please do watch the vid. The song is quite nice and catchy.

Shit.
Have been slacking too much recently.
Gone back to my slacking lifestyle.
Cannot cannot.
I need to really really mug.
Not the fake fake sit there but nothing goes into the brain kind.
Sian I really need to CHIONG.

On a side note.
My Sore throat is okay alr!
yay! actually not totally okay but it feels MUCH BETTER.

Tomorrow is Holiday.
Need to make full use of it!
need to make sure I follow my schedule.

But slacking is still so tempting.

I am trying to 放下 more and more.
Still fighting inside me to let go.
But I am generally feeling better.
Thanx to the people who encourage me.
Its tough but I am trying.

用一根火柴燒一場蜃樓　借這場大雨讓自己逃走
荒茫公路無人的漂泊　寂寞海嘯把我捲走

用一段感情換一個朋友　每一句再見割一道傷口
躲在萬劫不復的街頭　微笑參透覆水難收

倘若說放一次手　就像咳一個嗽
我又何苦　在乎得不到的溫柔

我坐在公路的出口　等待天黑以後無邊的寂寞
連想你都是種殘酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落　緊抱一個醉生夢死的枕頭
游不出回憶　卻學不會放手　怎麼走