was reading the newspaper and following up some stories recently.

the RenCi incident finally ends. Mingyi and his assistant are found guilty.

It really tells us something isn't it?

Just one wrong step, one mistake, and whatever effort you had given in, whatever sacrifice you made, whatever reputation you have built up, will just be gone in such a short while. I used to respect what Mingyi did for the people. But it seems that what he had contributed does not make up to what mistakes he had done.

I took a step wrong, made a mistake earlier on.

I hope the consequences will not be too great for me to take it.

I still cant get over it I guess.

wow look at my cbox! kanasai

$%#^$**$%#$%#%&$^*

apparently the owner of this link has a lot of people spamming on his tagboard saying pls do not tag their personal blogs.

There ARE this kind of idiots out there. IDIOTS

我知道我没有机会
我早就知道了
我对这些事的直觉还蛮敏锐的
虽然我不希望自己懂得那么多

我早就知道自己根本不能比较
但我一直不愿意接受
一直还抱着希望
还希望自己有办法
让一切改变

太迟了
我知道的
我的心还在痛
但是
我知道没有办法改变
there is no short-cuts to happiness but dancing is one of them.
I knew whats wrong after reading it.
[reply tags!]
yt: haha yah i am trying to mug hard! but i keep falling asleep! and i like writing in chinese coz i can express myself better! try learn reading in chinese! HOHOHO
dhika: it is not bimbotic loh! i am just expressing how much i love them haha
xiuming: okay we shall meet up after exam!
oe: trying to let everything be the past haha.

OMG OMG OMG!!!

It has been such a long time since I last heard anything about Wondergirls. And I MISS THEM. They havent been having any new productions recently due to a JYP tour in LA and NewYork.

So I went back to check some of the blogs about Wondergirls and I FOUND THIS!

Wohoo! After I watch I was like... WOW!!

I really love Wondergirls hohoho. And btw Sohee's singing is so much better now! I used to think that her voice are nice but she doesnt really know how to sing. Such a pity. BUT after watching this video I feel happy for her!

MY SUNYE IS STILL AS PRETTY & HOT AS EVER HOHO

And Yoobin is still a lil plump haha.


[edit]

The MV is actually a remake of the song "NOW" by Fin.K.L. (consists of Lee hyori, Oak Joo Hyun, Lee Jin, Sung Yu Ri). I went to watch the actual MV on youtube and the MV is about 80% identical (besides the rapping part and the dance). Haha I think the director tries to keep the flavour. And I think Wondergirls' version is nicer hehe.

Please do watch the vid. The song is quite nice and catchy.

Shit.
Have been slacking too much recently.
Gone back to my slacking lifestyle.
Cannot cannot.
I need to really really mug.
Not the fake fake sit there but nothing goes into the brain kind.
Sian I really need to CHIONG.

On a side note.
My Sore throat is okay alr!
yay! actually not totally okay but it feels MUCH BETTER.

Tomorrow is Holiday.
Need to make full use of it!
need to make sure I follow my schedule.

But slacking is still so tempting.

I am trying to 放下 more and more.
Still fighting inside me to let go.
But I am generally feeling better.
Thanx to the people who encourage me.
Its tough but I am trying.

用一根火柴燒一場蜃樓　借這場大雨讓自己逃走
荒茫公路無人的漂泊　寂寞海嘯把我捲走

用一段感情換一個朋友　每一句再見割一道傷口
躲在萬劫不復的街頭　微笑參透覆水難收

倘若說放一次手　就像咳一個嗽
我又何苦　在乎得不到的溫柔

我坐在公路的出口　等待天黑以後無邊的寂寞
連想你都是種殘酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落　緊抱一個醉生夢死的枕頭
游不出回憶　卻學不會放手　怎麼走

My sore throat is still there... and it's getting worse without the 25.70 dollars antibiotics to control it. And the swell at the lymph node behind my ear is getting worse. And I am getting a runny nose. Hopefully I dun get sick by tomorrow. Think I am going to see a doctor tomorrow.

Sian... Don't want to get sick at this time. One week to exam and if I get sick... Win liao lo.

I need some strong medicine to kill the virus/bacteria whatsoever.

When I scan through my recent blog entries, I realised, all emo post ah!

Yah, life hasnt been that well recently, and I am starting to discover a lot of new things about myself, about life. I had changed a bit, or maybe more than a bit, and I almost couldnt recognize myself. I turned into something I do not understand. Its scary. Its fearful. I do not know if I have gotten out of it. But one thing I am sure is, I WANT TO GET OUT OF IT. I do not want to remain as sth which I do not even know.

Well, and as usual, I have a difficult time making decision. The decision to stay, or to let go. I knew it would be tough initially but I still stepped in. And I knew how tough it will be to get myself out, but I still sunk into it.

And now, I know its time for me to let go. But some part of me still cant bear to leave. Some part of me is telling me not to give up, but I know I should not listen to it. But knowing and doing are two different things. I am not ready.

i am in agony i am in pain
knowing the truth my hopes turn vain
why this moment why this happens
cant things go the way i wish it'd happen?

reply tags!!

Gerry: Hello! long time no see? how u doing?
yoga: haha wish I could do it. if i can i wont be in this shape anymore.
evonne: okay! i will but i dun eat chocs so can gimme sth else? hahaha
dhika: haha emo-ing less alr... still thinking about the post u put up.
ale: haha i guess we will have to meet up after april then! hopefully not like this anymore!
yt: I will try! no guarantee tho! hehe
LX: hello. how u doing?? haha i am fine la but a lot of things is up! wat about u?

Organic Chem Quiz 2 tomorrow~
Jiayou!!!

昨天早上
我第一次感觉到恐惧
第一次感受到
被恐惧侵蚀的那种恐怖
我可以感受到
自己被一点一点地吞噬
手脚冰冷
脑中尽是我不敢想象的一切
我第一次了解
为什么人会被恐惧打败
会失去一切勇气
会害怕
会想要逃避现实

I have turned into something that I do not even recognize.
How did this happen?
How did this all started out?

I need an answer
I need a solution